Ball Worries

So, we have a local fetish event called The Ball. They happen every couple months at a local nightclub. Basically it's a nightclub with a dance floor, and they section off part of it to turn it into a dungeon. There's a strict fetish wear dress code.There's also a lot of rules in place for safety, it really is a very well run, and long-running, event

I've been to The Ball once. It was shortly after I met Daddy, and we hadn't yet started our DD/bg relationship. It was the Halloween Ball, which meant I was in costume, not fetish wear. The Halloween Ball is a great one to go to for first timers, but the regulars often don't like it because it brings out the "tourists". I spent the night dancing and hanging out with my friends, I didn't go anywhere near the dungeon.

Now, the June Ball is coming up, and the three of us are planning on going. I was really excited about getting my first "real" Ball experience, maybe even getting into the dungeon. Like Daddy said in his post, we've been hosting some events, and going out to others, in order to meet people in the community. This means we know more people who will be there, which should make me more comfortable. But, lately I've been having second thoughts about going to The Ball. Daddy told me the decision on whether or not I was going this time was up to me, but that I would be going to the next Ball, no matter what. I have a lot of body image issues, and when I tried on the outfit I planned on wearing and realized just how little it covered, I freaked out a little. Really, I'm as covered as I am in a bathing suit, but I have been told to be prepared to lose my top over the course of the evening. So that thought makes me a little uncomfortable.  It also happens to be tamile's birthday Ball. Because of this, Daddy will be spending some extra time with her in the dungeon. So, I thought I'd be more in the way than anything, but it turns out she wants me there to help with getting water and such. So, if I don't go, she'd be missing out too. So, I've made the decision that I am going, but I'm still nervous about it. I know I'm safe with Daddy and I trust him with my life, so why am I scared?

Rules

Daddy & I have been working on our list of rules together. Daddy wants me to be involved in setting the rules, not just have rules set by him for no apparent reason. All of the rules we came up with are meant to help me be a better person. Here's what we have so far:

Ask Daddy before eating any sweets
Ask Daddy before masturbating
Make my bed every morning
Brush my teeth before bed every night
Be up & out of bed by 10:30 every morning
Write in my journal every night
Track all my food & exercise in My Fitness Pal (an app on my iPhone used to track food & exercise for weight loss).

That's what we have so far, it's still a work in progress.

My progression as a babygirl

My progression as a babygirl has been a slow one and is still an ongoing process. I've been with
Daddy for almost 3 years now, but it wasn't until a few months ago that we started our DD/bg relationship. When He first brought up the idea, I have to admit, at first I wasn't sure. But the more we did, the more I liked it, and now I can't imagine being anything but His babygirl. I'm still learning and Daddy is a wonderful teacher.
We got the idea for starting our own blog from reading another babygirl's blog. tutuprincess writes a blog called Daddy's Fairy Princess, and she has some great ideas. One of her ideas I particularly like & really relate to is she says she thinks of her littleness not in terms of being an on/off switch, but more of a volume knob. When she's in a safe environment, with safe people, she's loud. In other places, not so much.
As soon as I read that, I realized that I felt that way too. I just turn it up or down, depending on the situation.

So, that's what being little is like for me. I'd love to hear from some other littles out there. What's it like for you?